Lately, I have been playing around with medium a lot. I don't particularly consider it part and parcel of my search to find myself as an artist, so much as an expression of how much my interests vary. As a hobbyist, I would like to see my art get better and better, but I find my search for improvement comes hand and hand with my enjoyment of art. I like to make art with whatever I can get my hands on, though sometimes I think this prevents me from being distinctive and developing a pure 'style'. Sometimes I wonder if all this can be a bit annoying for someone who wants to see more of one thing out of me, or if my eclecticism is really just a lack of discipline. Maybe this sort of messing around has slowed down my development as an artist, but I can honestly say that I enjoy what I do.
That is not to say I don't have moments of frustration, or times when I try something over and over only to have it fail. I know that plenty of my art could use work, and that I need more discipline in going back over areas where I have trouble. It is very difficult for me, for example, to come back and change a piece once I have set it down. I need to work on my fear of mistakes when it comes to a piece that I'm attached to. I know that my art could be so much better if I could go back and redraw or work on a piece I haven't worked on in a while. I feel like a more consistent 'style' would probably help me in this endeavor. A lack of formal training means my ability to replicate is not as good as I think it could be. I am hoping that I will someday have the ability (and perhaps the maturity) to work on these issues.